bad girl

The stupid blogger keeps prompting me to upgrade but it is not helping me on it. Sure I have a gmail account but what is the next step? I see no button to click to advance to the next stage of upgrading and pressing 'Enter' on the keyboard doesn't help either. So to hell with it, I don't need to be upgraded. I am perfectly fine with adding entries the way it was in the past.

Anyway I have been a bad, bad girl last week and will continue to be bad (hopefully) for one last time come Monday. I am suffering the consequences for being bad in terms of monetary outflows. Sigh.

It will soon be over, yah.

enduree

I am going to have to master the art of endurance for the next five days. But I am really quite pessimistic, demoralized and so forth possibly due to the hard knock to my confidence a few weeks ago.

I doubt I can finish my stuff but no way am I going to stay late and put in the extra hours (when they are no longer claimable).

My stay is too brief to show any form of goodwill.

old skeletons in the closet

I dug out a story I posted online 3 years ago. The website had deactivated my account and well I re-activated it. And my story was still there, all twelve chapters. It was an unfinished business as in the story was never completed. I enjoyed writing short stories during my secondary school days. Couldn't really indulge in this in junior college due to the heavier workload but this particular unfinished tale was done in year 2003 when I was in uni already.....because I wanted to archive certain events that happened in real life into the story, as a form of remembrance. I can't remember why I never got around to finish it but probably cos no time lah.

Skimming through it now brings back a flood of memories. Things I haven't exactly forgotten but have put it behind me.

Now I am truly feeling nostalgic.

when fever strikes

Dang.

I came down with some viral infection in the wee hours of this morning, thinking it was nothing I went down to client's place and soon I was experiencing sharp pains in my tummy and my legs were all wobbly and stuff. Silly client had a four storey building without lifts and it was quite a torture climbing up and down. My head was getting increasingly heavy and body getting weaker by the minute, I decided to take half a day of mc. I suppose the senior won't be too pleased especially since the doc gave me another day off cos......I didn't even know I was running a 38.3 degrees fever. Doc asked if I had fever, I said no. He didn't believe and stuck the thermometer tingy in my ear and exclaimed at the high reading. Okay fine..I was all gooey but didn't know I was burning inside.

Sigh just wish for the next 2 weeks to fly past. And why is it that after one week of being unassigned, I had to fall sick on the second day of work. It is a case of immune system not knowing how to react.

I haven't had fever since the longest of time. Or maybe I never realised it.

bahhh

I saw my JC crush today, him being my first serious crush...and sometimes I would wonder to myself if I'll ever see him again. As luck would have it (after so many years), I think he works in the office tower beside my current workplace (which is the second tower with the same name). I was on job today and decided to go earlier. As I was dragging my feet to work, I saw this familiar figure wearing checked pink shirt, no-nonsense pants and a pair of well polished shoes in front of me. He would have blended into the corporate crowd if not for that sorta dusty black eastpak he had slung over one shoulder and THAT characteristic way he walks. Dammit...I don't know how to describe...I badly wanted to overtake him and take a closer look. Ended up almost following him into the (wrong) lobby. It would have been damn embarassing if I were to be stopped by the security (for not having the right ID pass), ha.

Unfortunately I am leaving the second tower...but at least now I have a very good idea which company he could be working for. Of course there are zillions of tenants in that buildings but I am having a very good guess now. It is just too bad I'm leavingggg......It is good to see him though. :)

self-denial

Was in self-denying mode for the past four days. I would call it the extended weekend where I did absolutely nothing but engaged in brainless whackings.

So my long weekend is over and gee, it's Monday again. I have no idea what's in store....to continue to self-deny or to make that one-time decision that will spell a shock move and change alot of things dramatically.

In a way, I got what I wanted.

square one

Fate is really cruel.

After 3 months, I am back to square one? Back to where I originally wanted things to be. Take note of the past tense because I no longer feel like wanting it this way anymore. Perhaps if things have gone my way 3 months ago.....okay I don't know how to continue with this statement as I hate what-if scenarios now. Cos nothing ever turns out right. I feel jinxed.

It is ridiculous.