I apologise for the lack of entries, in case anyone is still checking back here.
And nowadays I will only blog when there is a need to, like today...Sumiko Tan has a new article on ST! She is like my idol, can, because I so agree with all that she said. Let me post a few quotes from her article - "Fear of the Unknown" -
"Happiness is cyclical. We've discovered that unhappiness invariably follows happiness, so it's best to keep your head down, stay under the radar and control your emotions."
True! Happiness always feels surreal to me probably because it seems in recent times I have encountered more shit than any form of true happiness.
"..if I'm negative about something and something negative really materialises, then I won't feel too let down as I had predicted this all along."
hahaha that's what I always say loh to people who know me well. I'd predict all the bad things first so if/when they really happen, it feels less worse, cos it's like I have been expecting it all along.
"It's perverse, I know, and pop psychologists will have a field day with people like me."
They will have a field day with me too!
"Can it be that I had once experienced such great happiness only to have it end so abruptly and painfully that I never wanted to be put in a situation where it might happen again?"
(Fortunately) I have not encountered any great happiness to have it shattered in my face. Happiness doesn't quite go together with my pessimistic self.
"...I've become comfortable with my glumness. It's my shield against future unhappiness."
Yes!! lol.
"It is certainly more painful to lose a new-found happiness that it is to be constantly unhappy."
nods?
"Humans are cowards in the face of happiness. It takes courage to hold on to happiness."
I agree with this somehow. but since there is nothing to hold on to, so this statement is really not that applicable..hahaa.
I know this entry sounds like a contradiction to what I posted on FB, which is actually a quote from SATC- "“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future,
stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”
I'm trying not to think too much now, kinda like on auto-pilot mode for most of the days. But I have no expectations (on anything remotely positive) either cos I hate to be disappointed. So there. End of my rant on a Sunday morning. :)
