Because this is too long to be expressed in Twitter. Yes, I do tweet to a non-existent audience but mainly I use Twitter to keep myself updated of other happenings.
I know my Headmaster theory probably sounded harsh to you. I have to say that is not my intention. I am disappointed that the Pure Blood/Half Blood theory no longer holds but the bottomline is, stellar grades or not, you still need a Headmaster to recognise your potential in order to rise above the ranks and eventually do well in Hogwarts. I am sorry the word 'potential' wasn't quite expressed clearly yesterday which led you to interpret that I meant it as you didn't do anything to get there. At the end of the day, I wanted a fairer system, one that recognises the amount of experience and not whether the stellar grades/headmaster recognises you are a gem. In other words, do not shortchange. But fuck it la, the world is not fair anyway. It has been 6 months down the road and I'm kinda appalled at myself for reacting strongly. But I have cooled down. I have enough shit to deal with as it is.
Back to the current world, enough of the hogwarts nonsense. I am about to be thrown in the deep end in a number of not very likeable locations. I understand your rationale for wanting me to lead, I never say I don't want to. I only hope to be given an opportunity this year to learn as much as possible in a supporting role before the next progression (if it happens). And I understand the rationale also that the other so-called nicer locations are probably more xiong but after a stressful day, at least one is still in a place that can soothe the mood and not in some XXX place where recoiling back into the hotel seems like a better option. I'll never be able to bring this across to you in person as I do not want to appear like I am choosing anything. I know I do not have this luxury. The best plan I can think of is, why not let me join the other team and allow me to learn from the one who has done it before? But no your mind is made up, unless some new projects come in and make it impossible for me to do the job.
I worry too much about the future. And yet the past still haunts me once in a while.
