some things just don't die

I saw him again today. At a food court near my workplace. I'm surprised as I thought his workplace is 2 train stations away. Or maybe he's working for a new place now. *shrugs* But well, the impact of seeing him again after two years is pretty minimal.

It's kinda weird and amusing that people from the past are appearing one after another before me. lol.

On a different note, I totally dig bonitochico. Heart their dresses. Needless to say, I have contributed a substantial portion of this month's clothes buying budget to them but only received 2 dresses so far. :( The rest are backorder-ed. I hate waiting.

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My Sunday morning was ruined by a sms.

And all was dark and gloomy for the rest of the day.

I dread Monday. :(

retail therapy-ing

I literally went crazy and bought 6 dresses (2 backorders 1 pending) from a renowned local blogshop.

This is the result of panaroia/stress and coming from a person who rarely, ever bought any piece of clothing online. Now I sure hope they fit! I'm a lousy estimator, at the most I need to go on a diet, dammit!

I hope to get my pending (most recent) order first.... :\\ as I won't be seeing my 2 backorders till late March/early April and that sucks as March is a terrible, terrible month. I need to be cheered up, fast. :(

Tree talk

RPattz finally made a special appearance on Jimmy Fallon's silly segment on Robert is Bothered.

Damn hilarious lah.

IF

If for a moment you would put yourself in my shoes.

How would you feel if you just came back from foundation course and am clueless on the current status? And being instantly swarmed.

How would you feel that your boss is going on maternity leave soon and the boss' boss is totally hands free (and doesn't give a damn)?

How would you feel that in 3 weeks' time you would have to present ALONE in front of senior management?

If you would only pause for a moment and think of the above, perhaps you won't look so nonchalant and pass insensitive remarks. You are too sheltered whereas I'm a magnet for trouble.

I need to be retail therapied

Huat!

This is the first cny that I spent more time holing up at home/hotel than anywhere else. And totally didn't show face for any 拜年 activities.

Despite the above, I did lao yusheng x3 times so hope my luck can be multiplied by 3, lol.


Happy new year!

never again

I'm never going to make use of vpostusa again. I'll take USPS any day. The cost saving as advertised is a ton of bs.

Vpost just overcharged me by over S$50 as compared to an item of similar dimensions and weight that was shipped to me via USPS. I didn't even know when they implement the fuel surcharge thing and INCREASED the base charge as well. USPS was much more transparent in their charging.

bloodsucker..urgh.

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I'm a magnet for weird work arrangements.

I'm going to be working exclusively under a guy who has a history of mixed reviews from people who have worked for him. One of which is, someone didn't get confirmed. Haha. He is extremely hands free which means I'm effectively going to be handling all the shit work from the 3-4 months that I'm going to be stuck with him. And on a project that I'm totally clueless about. I guess in the end in the end it is going to be a one-man show, the one man = me.

I think I'm dead meat, from March onwards.

sick again

This is the second time that I have fallen ill in the month of January. Both times it originated from sore throat. Anyway I should say this trend of falling ill started before Christmas and it has well gone on into the new year.

Sigh I feel really bad taking mc tomorrow as my boss is kinda stressed and I have tons of files to review. But she's expecting and I'm gonna have to be socially responsible. My sore throat has degenerated to a full blown cold. This sucks totally.

愛不單行

找不到人說 心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那個人
很多人都像我 一個人過生活

愛 只有簡單筆畫
卻比想像複雜 恨安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人 也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛 是不可數的嗎？
為何我還相信 它不是獨行俠
我在等一個人 在等我的永恆
告訴我 愛不單行
別害怕

愛不單行 -羅志祥

urgh

The world cannot get any smaller but we probably asked for it.

A bunch of us skipped parts of the course today to hang out at this tea/coffee place which was just a stone's throw away from the ex-firm.

I wasn't actively participating in the conversation that surrounded a certain new colleague while the rest expressed their discontentment over the system and circumstances of her joining.

And then we got up to leave and someone called my name. Someone who was seated a few stools away. Turned out to be her boyfriend. Didn't know how much he heard but I hope he didn't catch much. :\ I suspected he did hear and recognised my voice but didn't call out till my colleague stood up and unblocked his view. Colleague was seated in between me and her boyfriend.

Okay whatever, I am being paranoid here.

Your new beginning was a perfect ending

I always knew there was some truth to this.

And hell, yes!

But that ending has to be deferred for now which I try to live through this shit and appear indifferent.

10 years after the millennium

I spent a quiet new year's eve with me, myself and the new expensive hobby.

Anyway to my very few readers, a happy new year to you guys! :)

blah

I discovered with horror today that one of my old online diaries (note: I had many) was still very much alive. Diaryland hasn't deactivated it and I had posted some rubbish on the front page entry 2 years ago. Needless to say, I promptly removed all traces of the rubbishy entry.

Said diary can be considered to be my pioneer diary. I actually jumped on the online diary craze in the year 2000 which effectively means I have been babbling nonsense online for almost a decade. That is pretty incredible.

And of course the standard of my online writing/thoughts have dropped tremendously. I used to have so much to bitch/rant about and the language was urm, more flowery. I was a literature student then, these things come easy. Then my creativity died as my life degenerated. From a proper web-based diary, it became a substance-less blog. I couldn't care less also if I have a stream of loyal readers as half the time I'm ranting to myself, lol. I'm not as interesting as before and with that I mean the me many years ago. Or maybe there are still interesting entries but those are classified ones which are published elsewhere and private.

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The year is drawing to a close. I have no new year resolutions as I never keep to any of them. Reflections? No, I don't really want to reflect back on 2009 so I'll leave it at that. I hope for an uneventful and bland 2010.

my world is a fish bowl

My world is freaking small.

I just discovered today that my soon-to-be auditee is my primary school classmate whom I have not met in the last 14 years. That's really disgustingly long. And I never recalled seeing him turn up at any of our past primary school gatherings.

Personally I find it slightly awkward to audit somebody I know although I have lost touch with the person for so many years.

Oh well, I hope he's still nice and hasn't evolved into an asshole over the years.

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Today is the day I broke my 3 month self-imposed shopping (clothes) ban. Just 2 weeks shy of the 3 month mark.

I have been buying random not that expensive things during the period. Justifiable cos they were not clothes but I was getting so sick of my work wear! Although there isn't much motivation to dress up at work, haha!

Anyway, I'm still proud that the ban did work from early October till mid December. *gives myself a pat on the shoulder* However from now onwards, I'm going to stick strictly to my monthly clothes buying budget.

In other news, the resident certified ass in my ex-company tendered his resignation. How ironic that he'd be the next to go after me.

D-u-m-b

Lately I have been composing a few un-published entries but anyway they aren't important (as I didn't complete any of them).

What I want to say today is, facebook is really dumb with the whole privacy revamp. Previously we can restrict viewing for status updates, now I can't restrict that without sealing off my entire wall of posts. With the wall missing, won't the person know that he/she has been blocked?

How stupid can facebook get?

punctured heart, randomness

New Moon sucks.

Just like the book.

It was already a chore trying to finish that book because it had no plot cept for Bella's internal struggles and hallucinations. The action only picks up in Eclipse. New Moon was a total drag in my opinion. The 1.5 popcorn review was damn right.

Maybe Treasure Hunter is more interesting, lol. After all it stars Jay and Baron Chen. lol again.

I'm so sleepy.

thankgodit'sfridaybutihaven'tcompletemyworkshucks!

Sluggish friday afternoon, what I term as the post-lunch syndrome.

After yesterday night, I concluded that my judgment is impaired/terribly flawed. Sigh, I will not indulge in self-deluding no more.

They are all the same.

I should shut up

I over-reacted.