Broke like shit

I just had a $30 per pax Chinese dinner today. We thought it would divide out nicely to around $25 per person but it turned out to be $30!!! That is very material to me considering my still unemployed status. I think I have to ban myself from dining at restaurants and shopping for the next one month. Not that I shopped alot actually in fact did I even shop at all? The money mostly goes on food I guess. Argh. And I had a $24 dinner cum dessert yesterday. This is very bad.

Was trying to get into maplestory for whole of yesterday because the server was bloody down. It was revived today but I had already stupidly deleted the program because I thought my game client was outdated. And it is taking mighty long to retrieve the stupid client! Arghhhhh.....anyway whacking mushrooms and monsters keep me at home and save me money.

My days of freedom are coming to an end. Sigh. Goodbye life, hello reality.

Singapore Idol - Hady

One would have thought somebody scored a goal in a soccer match when my block population gave a victorious roar. However it turned out to be the crowning of Singapore Idol - Hady Mirza. I was in the shower actually. That shows how much I bothered about the results although I did have a secret desire to see Jonathan Leong win instead. That aside, Hady does have the better vocals and well, arguably looks. I said arguably cos my friends were indeed arguing about this last weekend. Lol.

Congratulations though.

Itchy throat and what-not

I have been nursing an itchy throat since this morning. Now this is no good. Not a good time to fall sick on my last week of liberation.

Anyway I have been procrastinating the whole day and only got down to preparing standard answers for the standard interview questions tomorrow. Well they will have to ask those usual few questions and the unexpected ones I will just have to smoke my way through. I didn't even prepare for the last, recent interview. Just read through some samples and fell asleep with my notes. Hee. But since I am slacking away now and have the time, I shall try to be impressive tomorrow. Minus the itchy throat. Eeeks.

Who knows...I might opt for work-life balance over something else.

Life as a slacker

My first week of unemployment is a slow blurry mess of unimportant stuff but at least I believe I would be doing something meaningful tomorrow and which is to visit my alma mater - my junior college! The place where most of my memories strangely are despite spending 4 years in secondary and 3 years in university and only 2 years in JC. Things like my first serious crush (whom I still fondly remember), my favourite tutors, my favourite subject (History) and where I always seemed to have the time to rush down to Orchard for movies and shopping after classes. Yeah you know the good old days. Unfortunately the campus has shifted and I will be making my way with another friend to the other part of Singapore tomorrow. But what the heck, this kinda of stuff one can only do when one has the time. :)

Okay so what happened in this week.

Monday - I wanted to go the the hair salon but I slacked and slept my day away.

Tuesday - Finally dragged my ass down to the salon and sat for three hours while minimal things were done to my hair.

Wednesday - Went Orchard (again! been there for like 5-6 times already consectively!) and it was a total lacklustre attitude as we browsed shops and yawned like mad. Is it time to hit Suntec and Marina now tha the IMF is officially over?

Thursday (today) - Went for first round of an interview. Ya ya...I know I already got and accepted an offer but this doesn't mean my options are closed right? Besides I am so bored and going for an interview means there is something to occupy my time and it's for the experience. Who knows this might be a better alternative? :) I am scared of retribution too having rejected an interview with a well-known MNC recently.....yeah since now I have the time, there is no harm really in attending.

Friday - Return-to-seek-my-roots day! It is rather disturbing that my tutor isn't replying to my emails. It will be so sad not to see her tomorrow!

The weekends as of now are unplanned for. Three days are taken up next week with meet-ups and the 2nd round interview. Then it will ALL BE OVER! Damn. Life as a slacker still has its perks although it has no monetary value.

Seoul 2007

All the korea tour packages are fully booked! Argh. Well almost all. Of all the agencies that we scouted yesterday, only two had groups available on certain days next week but the two are 6 day packages which means no Jeju. Korea without Jeju just seems incomplete especially for a first-time visitor. What to do? We were indeed last minute and korean packages are so bloody hot. They had vacancies for countries like Australia, Japan but NOT Korea. And all other places we aren't particularly interested in. I have been to Hong Kong and Taiwan this year so these two convenient nearby spots are out too.

So this is it. No Seoul 2006 but plans for Seoul 2007 is definitely underway. It is good too. I save money.....considering that I am unemployed now.

I will just slack myself to death for the next two weeks.

sinful thoughts

I am extremely tempted to go somewhere next week. How sinful. Especially after blowing quite a material sum on a tote recently, a cellphone in the previous month and not to mention the taipei trip two months ago. At this rate, I am going to have to declare bankruptcy very soon haha. Yeah since I am now like twelve hours to unemployment. Hooray.

My mind is transfixed on this only place that I swear I have to visit before any other location comes into the picture. Yes but the $$$ issue, sigh. Should I just lock myself up for the next two weeks or pack myself off to Genting just cos I can pretend I am in some temperate country?

Had a hearty Japanese dinner with soon-to-be ex-colleagues earlier. Was quite worth it as the bill was split amongst some 11 over people and there was quite a fair bit of sashimi. Yummy. Crazy photo-taking followed after with much laughter. Unfortunately the group was incomplete due to some people not being able to make it. Well guess I have to try to grab them during lunch tomorrow for more photo session!

Gonna turn in now. So sleepy...my battery needs to be replaced.

all part of the game

To satisfy my insatiable thirst, I did something today that I thought I would never do. Or come to think of it, should I have done it earlier? Would it have make a difference?

The response I got was quite expected but at least finally, I got a reply. That beats sitting around and wallowing in self-pity. Some things are just meant to be but I am glad I did it today.

Rewind to November 2005. If I had done it then, things might be very, very different today. However I would have missed out on alot of things too like the great friends I made throughout my brief one year plus. So yeah you win some, you lose some although I am more towards the losing end. Haha.

So it's Friday tomorrow! Woohoo....

can't let go

Despite everything, I am still very sore about it. My friend remarked that if she were me she would have just go bang into the wall and die. Not very worth it but I guess it is just a very human thing to feel SORE about it. Argh. I need to move on....I need to get over it....I need to give myself two tight slaps.

What would you do if you won the big Sweep?

This place reeks of pessimism and well it stinks of depression too. To brighten things up a little (since I have tendered blah...and the world seems sunnier and warmer), let's do a stomp thing too. Courtesy from of course stomp although I am not a star blogger and will never be but anyway just a convenient topic lifted to discuss. So here goes..What would you do if you won the big Sweep? Think $2 mil.

Firstly, $2 mil can be gone in the blink of an eye if I were to purchase, let's say, a house. I am not really up to date with property prices but I am very sure $2 mil can be splurged easily on properties. But I am not interested in getting a house cos I am perfectly happy in my sty and buying properties for investment aside...what will I do? Like what I always wanted, if I suddenly get a windfall, I'll pack myself off to Europe for a month. After which the next destination would be Seoul....probably will spend a fortnight there. That means I'll probably be gone for about 1.5 months.

Having returned home happy and contented and still left with quite a fair bit of moolah, I will pay off my university fees, give my parents a healthy amount for them to save, invest whatsoever, some to charity and the remaining...ta daaaah will go into my retirement plan. As in part of the retirement plan. Which is the farming plan. :) Always wanted to be a farmer ever since I saw plots of land for sale at Queensland, Australia when I was there 4 years ago. Heard land ain't that expensive in Ozzieland and if I still have enough cash, I'll buy myself a piece of land! Currently I feel like cultivating a vineyard but in any case, the land first. Hopefully in time to come, I will be able to build a farm house as well and grow my grapes and rear my dogs. Ha how heavenly.....away from the disgusting city life. I am still pretty much a city girl but somehow the thought of a laid back farm life, it is just too enticing. I am just lazy in that sense too although I probably need hard work with the cultivation of the crops. Ha. BUT it is a different sort of effort yah as I will be working with nature instead of killing my brain cells. Sigh how I long for that.

After all that crap above, it is time to NOT wake up and go to bed as my head is really feeling gooey right now. So that's all for now. Goodnight. :)

Moving on

Last week was, well, quite interesting as where I last left off. For the first time, there is hope. I have choices now. However time is not really on my side as I have to decide soon and it is for the better or worse.

If luck hasn't spurn me in early August, I guess I could have been at a slightly better place already. However as luck would not have me, I have to seek alternatives.

Well I just want a place that I can breathe and work in, get my experience and move on.

So that is about it, more or less decided and shall I say, prepared to face the music come Monday. Sigh.

shortchanged

I feel so shortchanged.

My efforts don't get recognised is one thing. Screwing up the B and giving me less than what I officially deserve (as stated in black and white) is even more fucked up.

I believe I was behaving like a bitch towards my senior for the whole of last week over the slightest things. Firstly I was pms-y, secondly I disagree with some of the things that I had to do, on the whole I was just extremely touche. I felt apologetic but what the heck, whatever efforts I put in won't be appreciated in the end anyway. Nothing matters anymore.

Next week would be an interesting week.

28th August 2006

The truth is, I am more interested in leaving than getting a transfer which is unlike the others. Hence people who wishes to get a transfer but fear the possibility of being rejected aren't rejecting the idea of staying on in the department. But of course that is totally not an option for me as I am more or less set on leave, with or without a job. It is true that things aren't as rosy over in the other departments but certain things like basic welfare, they still somewhat have (doesn't sound convincing but should be better).

I am even excited about leaving. Oh god..the thought of it is too glorious. The pastures ahead are unknown but honestly anything now beats rotting to death in this place I currently call my workplace.

So here I am casting my net wide and abit blindly, hoping for some sort of indication/light (please don't let it be be the headlights of an incoming train) whatsoever....let next week be the last week that I'll ever be depressed in that place.

8 days more.

Oppressed..i hate my life

Am I supposed to feel guilty that the newly promoted senior is now slogging away in office on National Day? Well, I am doing work at home too and I don't really give a damn especially since I am in a throw letter mood every, single day. In fact the two letters are tucked nicely in my laptop bag, waiting for their grand appearance.

I feel so oppressed. Although I know I sorta have the upperhand, be it that I can throw letter anytime and heck the job, but the problem is I am given so very little time to complete the shit and worse still, can't charge more than what I'm allocated. Fuck it....and what to do if the client is on mc till Friday? Will the silly manager take this into account? Throwing the letter can solve this issue. After that I won't be obliged to. Except I will be unemployed really soon. Yay.

Sigh...with the NDP blaring away in the background...and I'm so down in the doldrums.

Once upon a time, there was hope.

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Bam!

Sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel could be the headlights of an oncoming train.

no light at the end of the tunnel

The cat is officially out of the bag as the intention to either leave or transfer was made known to one of the management. She was actually pretty nice about it but hinted about the consequences. What the heck, my mind is made up and I can't wait to leave except I have just kicked myself in the foot and possibly sabotaged my one and only chance. Sigh. It is now or never.....never mind the stinky job that might kill me in the next three weeks. The thought of leaving will motivate me on.

I really honestly can't believe how incredibly bad my luck can get. Can't things just change for the better? Can't I seek solace in something other than the fact that I am going to be unemployed damn soon? What a way to comfort myself....

There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

Jinxed

Earlier ie showed my blog as a flurry of mess. I was beginning to wonder what else can go wrong....can't believe a sim card can cost me my future.

I am jinxed, honestly. Sigh.

I shall just continue to be dazed.

what 3G?

My first 3G experience was anything but 3G. It's not even 2G....it's nothing... when I can't even make calls. My reception bar is nil. I spent last night and most of today trying to talk things out with the singtel people, only with them insisting that my connection has been set up and that I haven't logged in. I followed all their instructions, what with taking my sim card out numerous times, charging my phone to the brim and they even came up with silly suggestions that maybe my area is causing the phone to have no reception. What rubbish leh....

And how could they deactivate my 2G sim when the 3G wasn't even ready? So the final conclusion is that my new sim card is faulty and they have replaced a new one and it needs another freaking one more day before I can see IF it works. I have lost faith....I hope no one important calls me...this is so fucked up.

This just shows how bloody dependent I am on my phone. Am now using my dad's number and don't think I'm dao if I don't reply any messages. Cos I can't see any.

我們的紀念日

我的心忽然又活了

總在見到你的那一刻

原來我也有過這樣的激動

只是在習慣自我保護後　忘了... 想聊的故事太長了

反而就都沉默的笑著 金色陽光灑在你雙手上頭

看起來好暖讓我想緊緊握著


這是我們的紀念日　紀念我們開始對自己誠實 願意為深愛的人　

放棄驕傲　說少了你生活淡的沒有味道 這是美麗的紀念日　

紀念我們能重新認識一次 有些事要流過淚才看的到　

不求完美愛的更遠　要過的更好



我用寂寞來懲罰我　看著你走過　

要什麼當時不說 此刻能有你傾聽我　

心情的轉折　 那是種告解以後　讓人想哭的快樂

ridiculously expensive wishlist

As of now, I have two items on my wish list and together they cost close to $2k. Extremely material for a poor soul like me.

And well they are just wants, not needs and I can do without item A for a long time to come....item B I can do without too but I would like to have it asap for some practical reasons.

So that leaves item B! :)

I'll work towards it.