double shit

Shit job + Shit senior = Double Shit

Well I wasn't directly under her as in I wasn't in her team. Then my senior released me to assist her as there was not much to be done for my entity and my 2 seniors were clearing high level points. Turns out to be a complete nightmare. I expected it....seeing how the shit senior drove a year one assistant to tears. And she can happily admit that she knows people don't enjoy working under her. Argh, whatever it is, nothing pleases the shit senior. Her expectations are sky high and her sarcasm drips all over the place. Demanding, unreasonable, vague instructions....perfect combi for disaster to strike. Which happened on my last day on the job and just when I was about to pack my stuff and leave....the shit senior turned vile on me. Now I just want to forget the whole incident, forget her condescending look......

Finally I can be back to civilization tomorrow.

the brightest vs the less abled

I don't usually get worked up over newspaper reports and neither do I feel incensed to the point of blogging about it and possibly get into trouble.

But with all due respect, I am not going to list exactly which report I am referring to. But my basic points are, I am not disagreeing on the part about differentiating pay packages for the academically inclined (as with the case in public sectors). However, pay increments subsequently should still be based on performance as grades can be the starting point but should not determine anything thereafter. What I am ruffled with is the statement '..where the brightest ______ work in other sectors and are, in turn, ______ by their less able counterparts." I was like HELLO, not getting first class honours doesn't deem the person any less able. Okay there is a word 'may' before this statement but it still doesn't make things sound better if you know what I mean.

Talent drain in this particular industry may not only be attributed to the starting pay question. There are things to look into besides that (which I am not going to go into)....anyway there are quite a handful of first class hons peeps slogging away in this particular profession (despite the one pay fits all thingy) and they are doing fine (well some are). And my friend just made a very good point and reversed the above statement, " the brightest ______ may not always be the brightest and at times, their mess has to be sorted out by their less able counterparts." Which I totally agree.

finality

It will take a major asteroid crash to change my mind. Yes, probably the size of the same one thought to have wiped out the dinosaurs 65 million years ago and left a 180 kilometre crater in the Yucatan peninsula in Mexico.

Sorry but no details this time round.

I just need an outlet to fume.

It is over the slightest of things that became mission impossible and made me wanna throw in the towel. And I had enough of everything. My limit has been reached and I am taking this no more.

Wanted to whine in the book diary about this but I'm simply too lazy to pick up a pen.

i hate extraordinary surprises

Urgh. Just one more day to the weekend and client has to pass this extraordinary adjustment that would require more work. #$@

I have to rush to blockkkk my schedule before new jobs start popping up. This 2 week thing has already taken its toil and there are 2 weeks more to go!

dammit

My time sheet/expense claims just got REJECTED. For god knows what reason for I only saw the rejection via email and I obviously have no time to go back office to find out what's wrong. If I can't claim those miserable expenses in exchange for all my stress/emotional torture, I am going to faint.

This is so pissing for my mood has turned for the better in the evening for it to be down in the doldrums again.

on autopilot once more

I have been in a trance-like state for most part of last week and of course, Monday as well. It was no honeymoon as after the first week of induction/training, I was thrown full scale into the firm's biggest job which I rather not do, thank you. It would be nice to try it out first on an at least moderate sized job....just to get the feel of things. Unfortunately I have no such luxury and I don't think there is any learning curve here. It is either you know or you don't and just feel dumb. I feel as if I am on auto-pilot once more...this same feeling I had about a couple of months ago when I was doing that six month thingy in the previous firm. Going on auto-pilot blocks out the stress temporarily but the shock is acute when things screw up. Like they always do while I frantically dug through my CYAs to provide an answer to the senior.

I like to think that I am a liability to the team being new and all and having not done an entity of this size before. The grass is not always greener on the other side and I never felt that it'll be any greener here. The basic welfare is there alrite with the generous claimings and stuff but the stress and feeling of inept, I guess this happens everywhere as it is job specific. Am I lucky or just plain unlucky? Impressive portfolio? Nah..not when one is stuck on the same shit for the whole year.

hazy

What I hope for....a nice heavy downpour that would wash the stench and haze away. A nice heavy downpour that would keep me snug and warm in bed till late Sunday morning. However, despite the less than pleasing reality, what with the haze and humidity and it doesn't look like it is going to pour, I am still holding on to my precious weekend moments for I am a wuss and I am not looking forward to Monday. Sigh.

e-based learning is sucky

I never knew doing e-based learning could be such a chore. For it used to be a leisure pastime when one is unassigned. Now I am rushing to complete 8 (total: 10) different e-based quizzes with questions that are reshuffled and new ones popped up whenever a 2nd/3rd/4th and so forth attempt is initiated. So it is pointless to try to obtain model answers nor try to seek assistance from fellow colleague as no one knows which answers are right unless one aced it and seen most of the variations.

Anyway I am proud to announce. After much struggling and using up most of my personal time I have cleared all six modules of an irritating core material and am now left with two irritating little quizzes that I shall get it done and over with tomorrow so that I can go meet up with my beloved ex-colleagues. I realise how much I miss them! In fact I even miss my previous firm...bah! I can't believe these words are coming out of my mouth.

I wonder why I took back my laptop today when I ain't even got the energy now to attempt anything inside.

Rounding up

A glimpse into some of things that happened during the last two weeks.



Farewell dinner at japanese restaurant.



Official last (half) day in office.



One week later, I decided to pay a visit to my college at its new campus.



The canteen. Somehow it reminds me of NTU's canteen B.



The academic blocks look secondary school-ish. It now goes by alphabets.



The tennis courts on the third level.



On the other side of the river is the secondary school.



Last but not least, two of my lovely literature teachers.

So there it is, revisiting two closed chapters of my life. I don't usually do this, in fact never, about posting pictures up on the blog. Due to a horrific experience some years ago (and I never want to bring it up ever again), I ditched blogging for a while and even when I resumed, I choose to be fiercely private. As it is, very few people knew about this blog and I would like to maintain it this way so I can be open with my thoughts. Of course I have no control over the flow of internet traffic but I hate to abandon writing just cos of this. Haa..well partly due to the electronic age, I have increasingly grown lazy about updating in my book diary.

And dammit, the month of September is truly over.